06 Goldmine

In life, we go through what we call ups and downs. A lot of those actually. More ups than downs for some, more downs than ups for most though. But really, what defines an 'up' and what, a 'down'. When a down works out as a lesson, an experience, that makes future decisions easier, isn't it a potential up?

When we're in a dysfunctional relationship; constantly bickering over the micro-issues, being obsessive, possessive, and insecure about the most inconsequential things - but still in a space of deep love from time to time, still unable to survive when we're not around each other; is it really a downer when things come to a stop? Aren't we then able to move on to doper pastures? Sure, we'll sink into a dark and lonely abyss - we shut off everything and everyone - only till we meet that one-in-a-mil human being to lift us up again, it all works in a strange way.

We have 'fun' when we're pimped with the cash (good job, illegal means or even the bloody toto), head on out here and there, be 'seen' at the 'be seen' places, extravagant dates and house parties, etc. Are we then on the down-low when we all out of the cash money? I verily verily seriously believe that life is more exciting when we're broke. Think thinking about whether or not to smoke another fag just cause there won't be enough left for later, imagine how fucking delicious it would be to inhale that poison when we come to our last. Taking a bus and then rocking a long walk home just to save for a bit on the cab fare is a joy i can never explain, we all need to touch home sometimes if you know what i mean. The joy itself of making the best out of 10 dollars on a day out easily feels like a million dollars. There's heaps of examples, you get my point innit?

Can't we all just believe in ourselves. Do what we want to do; to not hurt the people that we deem instrumental in our lives, and just be our very natural beings. If what you love doing keeps you in a space of constantly being broke and barely breaking even every time we get the dough - keep doing it I say; there will never be enough lessons in life. Music for example, our passion could be our bonus lottery. Here we are, doing the thing that we love and doing one thing or another on the side just to make ends meet; and hey someday, who knows? People may like your art, and we could then have the ability to be a full time craftsmen for our love of art. Take things in our stride, bide our time, learn from everything. Always do what comes naturally - for everything. There is no right or wrong. We will never find out, if we don't jump into it. Its then, we realize the true prize of chasing every dream is finding ourselves; filling up on our mind's capacity.